Words by Allison Wolf
“Lord, what do you want me to do?” This is
a question I have asked God many times,
especially over the last few months. I am
finishing my third year at the University
of Manitoba, and have one more semester
before I finish my Bachelor of Arts degree.
Considering the time remaining, I have
been thinking long and hard about what
comes after I receive that little piece of
paper that tells me I’ve graduated.
Going into university, I thought I wanted
to be a teacher. It didn’t take long for that
to change. Since then, I have desperately
sought out a new career goal. I pray about it
daily. I ask God why He
sent me to university
in the first place. Why
spend all that time,
money, and energy for
God answers me with
silence. I ask God for
guidance, to show me
the path He wants me
to take. God answers
me with silence.
Each summer between
school years, I have gone home. This summer, however, I have decided to stay in the
city. It has proven a challenging endeavour.
I managed to secure a living space, but had
not yet secured a job. After asking God to
help me find one, He once again answered
me with silence.
When none of the jobs I applied to led
anywhere, worry and doubt overcame
me. Then, I was offered a position at a
bookstore. Though the hours are minimal,
Continuously pleading to hear God’s
voice only to not hear Him can be a
very discouraging thing. Sometimes I
wonder if God is even listening, if He
even cares. Sometimes I feel very lost
and confused. Though I am not sure
why God has remained silent with me,
I do know this: God wants the best for
His children. The best. Not our best.
Our best doesn’t even come close to
Paradoxically, I’ve come to realize that
I have heard God’s voice in His silence.
No, He has not given me specific
answers to my specific questions, but He
has told me that He loves me. And so I will
hold onto that in my seasons of silence,
because God’s love is the only answer I need.
With God’s love, anything and everything is
Who’s your favourite person in the Bible and why? At the moment, besides
Jesus, Job. He endured so much suffering, but by staying patient and faithful
he was blessed tenfold.
Carlos Alberto Gomez Iniguez
feel very lost
am not sure
why God has
silent with me,
I do know this:
God wants the
best for His