just seems so demanding and something
so impossible in those times.
The expectations from the Church are
very, very high, but you need both expectations and acceptance. When the expectations override the loving of the sinner,
those times when I was failing, when I
wasn’t even meeting my own expectations, the Church can be a pretty harsh
place to be.
I especially hated that hymn “It Is Well
With My Soul.” It isn’t well with my soul.
Life is broken. The world is broken so
much of the time. There needs to be a lot
of understanding of our brokenness.
Otherwise we playact and no one is
healed. At one point we went to a very
dark church and just sat in the darkness.
There is a time for that.
On the other hand I really have appre-
ciated the Church support, and some-
times you have to act before your heart
gets to where you want it to be. You just
keep going, and eventually it becomes a
calm place again.
FT: In the book you discuss letting go of a
narrow faith. What kind of faith do you have
WD: I think that being scared and human,
we often have a very narrow and control-
ling faith. My God is a creator, He’s a God
who loves choice, the perfect parent who
just loves their child and allows them to
risk, and knows that it’s not one of control,
but of love.
And that means it is a bit scary. God
allows choice. He allowed choice for the
angels, and in the Garden of Eden. God
is all powerful, but He is moral and
…it feels like we are doing the right thing by being shallow,
but the healing happens when we go down deep, and that
takes courage and risk.”
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righteous, which means the world is not
perfect. I have a bigger God who is quite
majestic and loves play, but wants reality
rather than any kind of fake sham of
security. It’s in the tension of life that I
feel alive, but in my fear I don’t want
that. I want it to be controlled and com-
That is where God is. God is a God of
tension, at least in this world. The vibration of good and evil with the pull toward
the other, the good and the huge celebration of every time we even just give
someone a glass of water. God is in the
FT: Thank you so much, Wilma. /FT