my BIg god momenT
Words by Dagmar Morgan
Picture an epic landscape covered in tall
grass. A girl stands in the centre, hair
blowing in an upturning wind, her head
towards sky. The clouds darken and part to
reveal streams of light, thunder rumbles in
the background. Jesus appears, His hand
extended. She thinks, “Finally! This is it!
He is speaking to me! This is my big God
If you’re like me, your most important
moment with God was not the grand
majestic, film-worthy moment I described
above. My biggest moment with Him was
also one of the smallest.
It happened during one of the most mundane parts of my day. The commute. I was
worshipping with the radio and praying
about family issues. I had always felt like
an outsider, but after some challenging
loss and trauma it was official, my family
and I weren’t talking. There was hurt, guilt,
and shame attached to our relationship,
and I was convinced that these were the
roots that made and defined me. I thought
I was unloved, misunderstood, a loser, and
that nobody wanted what I had.
In my life I’m surrounded by tight-knit
Christian families that have sown into many
individuals and cultivated thriving people.
One day I asked God, Why didn’t I have that,
Lord? How am I going to build a successful
life, full of decaying roots that produce a shaky
plant at best?
It was such
an honest question.
Well, it was probably
more of a complaint.
Why can’t I have what
others have? What
And so clearly
He said, “You do
have that.” I was
so shocked at the
answer because I
really didn’t think I
had that in my life.
So, I spoke back out
loud in my car, “God
what do you mean?
I so, obviously do
He said, “I am your Father; not your earthly
parents. I made you. It does not matter
what people have done, what your family
has done. I am your Maker; come to me for
those things.” It sounds trite but in that
tiny little exchange my entire life changed.
It sunk in. Deeply. I was missing nothing. I
had Him! I had love, guidance, correction,
joy, and purpose. My chest softened and I
felt my heart almost sink with the weight of
His love. He is my Father.
Since that moment I have taken God’s hand
and walked through all my childhood hurt,
teenage disappointment, early 20s hardships right up until today. He showed me
what happened to you is not who you are.
He planted me here. Jesus is the soil I can
grow from. He will care for me, fight for me
and protect me. Just like a family should.
The more I talk to Him out loud in my
car, the more I sing to Him, the more He
whispers back who I truly am. He may
speak quietly but the impact is as loud as
a thousand boomboxes playing the same
song. Let Him drown out the world. He is
your father. He loves you!
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to striving every day to be more like Him. To know Christ
is to know God. Read John14: 6.
moment I have
hand and walked
up until today.”