“GOD’S WILL FOR MY LIFE”
You’re gasping for air. Your shaking hands flail frantically, searching
for something to hold onto to stop your trembling knees from
buckling beneath you. Your heart thunders in your chest like a train
in a tunnel. Your head spins like the wheels on the track. Where am
I? You ask. There’s a person in front of you, they had asked you a
question. What was their question?
And then you remember. It was the question you most dread, that
question which paralyses you with fear and makes you stutter
uncontrollably: “What do you want to do with your life?”
Though always well intended and inevitable during any measure of
small talk, for a great part of my life I couldn’t help feeling utterly
dumbfounded when asked that question. It may be that you cannot
relate to this, or perhaps you have known since childhood the path
you want to take in life. You may know exactly which program you
will study in university or college, exactly which school you will
attend, and the job you will work once you graduate.
I, on the other hand, couldn’t help but laugh when people asked me
what my five-year plan was. I didn’t even know what was happening
at that present moment, much less five years from now. Yet it
was impossible to escape the pressure to figure life out; guidance
counsellors, teachers, parents and peers eagerly watched to see
which career path I would venture onto, calling out prompts while I
stood motionless sweating.
Closely linked to my oblivion regarding my career was a harmful
misconception of God’s will. I was desperate for a “God’s Will 101”
The truth is, God’s will for you is not a career. Instead, the Bible
outlines plainly what it is God desires of His followers – worship
God, strive for holiness, and love others. If you want to do the will
of God, then follow the commandments of Jesus and the scriptures.
As long as you are doing these things, it doesn’t matter which
school, job or circumstance you are in. God’s desire for us to worship
Him, strive for holiness and love others applies everywhere we
go and to everyone we encounter. Shocking, I know, yet infinitely
freeing. God’s will ceases to be a dangerous tightrope walk where
one wrong decision causes calamitous results. It is instead a climb
(though often uphill) marked with grace and forgiveness.
Freedom comes when you ask yourself not what you want to be, but
who you want to be. Fear dissolves when you consider not what you
want to do, but what has been done for you.
Where and how will Katrina be celebrating Christmas this year?
In Thailand, as she is moving there to teach English.
Justin Luebke /